Die with your boots on.

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Rainy day. If you wonder what is this and why is there a black flag hung out there,it’s the National Theather and it’s on strike.

Working on Ume no Odori during a break from shopping for gifts!!I’ve reached chapter 4.

Princess Sultana / Jean Sasson
Violin from Auschwitz

This is probably one of the funniest books I’ve seen in a while. SFRJ (Yugoslavia) for repeaters — Tourist guide.   (not an actual tourist guide ofcourse)

The Historian / Elizabeth Kostova

Today was also absolutely crowded. but this is my escape from the rush every year:caffe ”Havana”.

2011 was all but what I expected it to be.

School project in the first semester was really,really bad because everything was done with a dumb template. This semester we have 2 projects,but we can choose what to do and how,which is much better than using a template.

After losing someone in September,I wanted to give myself totally to learning and drawing but instead… another asshole appeared in my life and I haven’t gotten rid of him even now.(Even after saying ”Please fuck off” he rolled back like a yo-yo).

I lost the last of my sanity,love and a lot of friends in 2011 which makes it year of loss … Hopefully I will gain something nice in 2012,even if it started badly.

This year I will devote myself to my projects. (I will atleast try to…)

(I will also try to stop bringing pizza and tea/coffee from the canteen into classroom)

But also take care of my sleeping/passed out colleagues.

I don’t know how this happened….. In a single drop I can put all the tears I shed for you before.

You held my hand and asked ”If I proposed your hand in marriage,would you accept me ? Would you live with me all your life?” and I said yes… So why did you let me go ? Now I’m sitting here alone,drinking…just to feel that I’m alive. I really thought there’s something in you….that you won’t let me leave… it was so easy for you,so fucking easy.

”ai shiteru” nante mou iranai

I don’t need anything like ”I love you” anymore

tada zutto soba ni ite to

Just tell me you’ll always be by my side

A bullet with your name on it…I keep it inside my flesh…. but will the sun shine tomorrow again ? Will you dance in my head to the rhytm of regret ?  Will you watch me as I wither and fade away?

My saviour. My beloved. My hero. My tormentor. My executioner.

towa wo kanjita no wa uso janai

i didn’t lie when I said I felt eternity

tashika ni kimi no tonari de

I’m really right here by your side

I’m sorry I have to look at you like this… with your fingers you wrote ”I love you” on my  body…I can’t believe the words you’re saying now…that….I ruined everything.

It’s ok because while you sleep alone in your bed tonight I’ll be with another man…

Love is a lie and I’ve always been a liar…but the truth hurts,doesn’t it? The voice from my heart lied to me and said you’re the one….that’s where regret sleeps…where you’re wounded but refuse to admit.

Loving you, it’s like trying not to drown in quicksand… every second is a struggle.

even to this day, the lines on your face haunt me…

like a map of where I should  look for hidden treasure, I can’t stay away.

so pure.But if I keep on believing in it… 

Then the pain won’t disappear.

What are those eyes looking at?

A rainy day and you without an umbrella

it’s alright to cry in this pouring rain,but

the wounds wont fade away

 I was captivated by your pain. 

If you would tell me that this is you…your true self,

then I don’t mind getting hurt.

the reflection of your dancing hands

through the dirty glass

i wanted to reach out and dance with you

Dance away these never-ending tears.

If there is nothing, then I let time close my heart… and die. 

In this fading dream, I sing once more

it’s alright, as long as you remember,

these hands will be here to protect

Today,in this puddle of rain

In this dream that’s supposed to end, a sweet “Goodbye” blooms.

I saw your colours slowly starting to melt

I know it’s foolish to pretend,but I can’t find any words….

In this puddle of rain in which our blue skies have melted

Those dancing hands show me tranquility.

忘れないで.

I’ve promised myself I wouldn’t get caught in this mess again…… Falling for someone who is not the right type for such as myself…. But I did it again.  A guy whose life is all about bars , alcohol and drunken bar fights… I don’t know was this inevitable,but… my heart is with you.

-to you , in the clear blue sky –                                 9 / 5 / 2011

Like a tired beast, waiting for you at your doorstep…

It’s an unknown world to you,

The footsteps that separate us

I’ve never even counted…

Even if you have forgotten love,

I’ll love for the both of us

Even if you have forgotten love,

Let’s chase this blooming dream

The sadness that was conceived in both of us

We’ll make it go away, I promise

Can you hear me ?

My tired voice cries out to you

I can’t put it into words,

But I just want you here.

Two hearts that are spinning around endlessly

Without holding each other…

If I could forget the obstacles to you,

Without hesitation, I would

Because your love is unreachable,

Your voice is unreachable…

In the palm of my hand I lay down serenity

That I want to give to you

If these two hearts just go on

Dancing for each other

Surely, they will know love….